6 December 2008 Rainy Day

Morning was a Sunny Day and carried our plan as usual of going to Vivo City shopping. Today He is going to meet Her , they are going to Sentosa Resort , according to what He say..its a Co retreat for Her . I would choose to use the word He & She as I am really very unhappy. Sometimes , I really have to accept the road that I chose to walk.

Despite all these that I am going thru, I am really confused of our future. Will He choose to leave me when he has Her one day ? Does He really mean to hate Her so much or its jus another man giving a Lame Excuse ? These things really make me wonder and think.. have i made the right decision to be with a man who cannot give me any future ?

Admits that my feelings are very strong for him, I enjoy His company and really treasures Him alot. But tinking back , does he really treasure me or just treating me like a harbour ?? One that lets him rest on when he is sick of Her & return to her when he gets tired of me ??

Here is the sms that he sent to me which really hurts me " Tonite don anyhow run hor. Be home early and watch the taiwan idol show ok. Go anywher can sms M1 ok. But i wont reply lo cos i din bring this hp out but at least when I come back i know where you go mah. Just one night and past very fast de. Don sms wrong phone hor .Hee Hee, "

Does that mean that when he goes out , I gotta be home ?? I dont even have the freedom to go out with my friends ? Sometimes , we as human cannot be too much , we should know the limit & know what we should and should not know. When I see this sms ,I really dont feel like sending any sms to him.. make me tink what this is ?? He is the only one that will sms me ? I have lots frens out there waiting for me LOL ..

Really start to think nw .... what I really want ??

December

This is the end of the year and maybe the best part of the year where I can expect quite alot of surprises. Although every year's Christmas , I will be having some type of party. Seems like this year gonna be a quiet one. Looking at the lightings along Orchard Road this year , the theme is Candy ?? anyone's been there ? Whole road full of candy deco makes me droop ..

My 08 Wishes not all are fulfilled , but my dream to get my own car is accomplished. Getting my PINK Sony Vio laptop is also accomplished. What's the next wish ? Perhaps is my career and family ... i failed in being a good wife and mother. This I really must apologise to Chamainne, because of the bad father that I had to leave her... Lets drop the subject as I know her father will look after her very well.

Now looking into my 09 resolutions ........ I am still planning it , maybe it takes another month or so for me to come up with my resolutions..... so do follow up and read ...

Halloween Nite

Today is the 31st October and it is Halloween. Halloween means Ghost Day to me. Everyone will dress like a ghost and goes around scarring people. Looks like today will be a happening day at Clark Quay and St James.

I guess I just gotta miss this year's Halloween Celebrations again. How nice it would be if I could be dressed like one scary ghost and join in the fun @ St James Dragonfly.

Nights at Df is fun especially with the live band and those noisy English songs. Really missed the days . Memories are meant to be kept in our mind and look forward to the upcoming days .

Lunar is a place that I really miss also. New friends together with new group of singers as well as lovely live singing. Of course this is a perfect place to relax and chill out for the nights.

Clark Quay is a lively street especially at the night and long queues outside St James ( DF ), Lunar , MOS .. sometimes just wonder if these people just enjoy the queueing or they really have to queue because they want to enter the place?? Really wonders , is this what a typical Singaporean will do ? ...to be continued as the time is almost to go home ..